Going Through Grief Back to Joy

As a life coach and energy healer for many years I am open to learning new things. Often we teachers get so caught up in teaching that we forget to be students as well.

Recently I had an opportunity to learn about the law of attraction in a brand new way.

March 15th of this year several members of my family pulled up in my front yard unannounced.
I knew at once that something was wrong. This had never happened before, mother, brother, sister, brother in law just showing up. We are a family that calls first..

When my sister go out of the van I could tell that she had brought me news that I didn't want.

She continued walking towards me saying there had been a car accident and that my oldest daughter "didn't make it'. NO>> NO>> NO>> every cell in my body screamed out at once.

How could this be? This woman wouldn't even start the car without her seat belt on.

I don't remember falling to my knees, but was told by my youngest daughter that I did so. What I do remember is the intense agony within my heart. My first born child, My Sunshine, as I had always called her was no longer here with us in physical form.. What about my grandson, her 7 year old son?

In a state of numb disbelief I went inside and changed clothes to ride with my family to my sisters house to talk with the coroner.

Still, there was no way of getting my head around this. It just had to be a nightmare that I would wake up from in a bit. I pinched myself several times thinking this might wake me up. I cried from deep within as the reality of her passing made it's way slowly but steadily into my mind and heart.

I have given birth to four children and all that childbirth put together didnt' come close to the pain of this news. This was a new pain, something I had never experienced. A tearing of the energy umbilical cord that had for 34 years connected me to my daughter.

I hurt for my grandson.. how would a seven year old deal with this? How would he handle living full time with a father and step mom he only saw every other weekend?

Through the next two weeks I cried myself into a sinus infection. As a healer I realized what I was doing to myself and said aloud, "enough, Donna". Apply what you teach to yourself.

I had to come back to joy. The funeral was over, her apartment was packed and the belongings were in storage. I told my family that I was taking the week off. No more for that week would I involve myself in death and the passing of my child. I would remember joy, think about her first step and the first time she said Mama while holding my hand and looking into my soul.

I cried a cleansing cry. Letting go of the anger and confusion of why this had happened. I accepted that it too was good or it would not have happened. On some level we had all agreed to this and I had to allow myself to be happy again.

I allowed myself to feel my emotions but didn't hold onto those that I didn't enjoy. I found my way back to joy in the few months that followed.

I became a student of working with the principles of law of attraction even during this difficult time.

By focusing on what I wanted to remember, wanted to think and wanted to feel.. I worked my way from pain to acceptance.. to joy.

Vi, my first born child shone with an inner light that I have seen only a few times in my 53 years. She brought joy and sunshine to everyone she met. She forgave as quickly as she was hurt. She loved without conditions and celebrated each moment of her physical life experience.

She brought me much joy.. I am honored to have been her mama and her friend.

As a teacher, healer and coach I was inspired to add grief counseling to my services.
For years I've offer healing, teaching and life coaching services.. and now I will reach out to others who are feeling the intense grief of someone passing and lend a hand, a heart and experience.

If you are someone you know would benefit from my services please c...